I wish I could tell you guys that I had a fabulous week full of glamorous adventures since last week’s Weblog Wednesday post, and that I feel like my life is totally “on track” (whatever that means), but the honest truth is I can’t. My husband was sick much of the time with a bad cold, and my anxiety was pretty bad this past weekend.
As you all know, I started my new job on the 12th, so I’m approaching two weeks here. I am feeling slightly more settled each day, but big life changes are always hard for me in terms of the anxiety they provoke.
Last Thursday, we didn’t get to go do our normal Thursday night trivia since Dear Husband was sick. The entire weekend was very low key as well for the same reason. On Saturday night, however, we got out to go watch the University of Tennessee vs Mississippi State University basketball game over at my father in law’s house.
That afternoon I was a baking-cleaning-crafting fiend. Not only did I clean the kitchen top to bottom, I bought groceries, prepped meals for the week, baked homemade oatmeal cookies for my office, painted some picture frames and a vase for my desk at work, and did another fun little craft that you’ll see on the blog later in the week!
The week so far has been fine, I suppose. However, I honestly feel overwhelmed with the feeling that my life just isn’t where I want it to be. Don’t get me wrong – I am beyond grateful to have a loving husband and family and a good career. And of course I understand that achieving goals takes time, and that things in life don’t always work out the way we hope, but I still lately have been feeling this sense of feeling off track. Not off of a track that society says I should be on, just off the path I want to be on. Does that even make any sense?
I know it’s cheesy, but I saw a rainbow the other day, and it made me really feel at peace, if only momentarily.
Until next time,